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| I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life,
but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes. After that, you'd better know something.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.
I've learned that it's not what happens to people that's important. It's what they do about it.
I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.
I've learned that I'm getting more and more like my great- grandma, and I'm kinda happy about it.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I've learned that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that sometimes when my friends fight, I'm forced to choose sides even when I don't want to.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.
I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I've learned that if you don't want to forget something, stick it in your underwear drawer.
I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I've learned that the clothes I like best are the ones with the most holes in them.
I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.
I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves, get farther in life.
I've learned that many things can be powered by the mind, the trick is self-control.
I've learned that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.
I've learned that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us.
I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.
I've learned that although the word "love" can have
many different meaning, it loses value when overly used.
I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe. | | |
| It's been said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been. But what of a man who’s faced with what was? Or what may never be? Or what can no longer? Choosing the right path is never easy. It's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us. But sometimes we find our way to something better. Sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealousy and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be. And that's when we find our way to something better. Or when something better finds its way to us. -- One Tree Hill
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| its been almost a month since i've given up on him. but i've been real good. considering that for the last 4 years, most of my college career, he has occupied my heart. i spent a week at summer camp, which was amazing, seeing the stars at night, and just sitting outside looking at the wonderful things that God made, was a very humbling experience. yes, i missed home, and my friends and family, but i loved being away. i honestly believe that week has helped get me to where i am today. if you would have asked me a year ago if i would be okay with the fact of him never being in my life again, my response would have been no. but today, i am okay with him not being in my life, and knowing that there is a huge possibility that he may never be in my life again. so, everyday isn't a piece of cake, like today, when for who knows why, i couldn't get him out of me head. but i get by, on remembering the good times. was it weird when i found out that one of my friends knew him...oh heck yes, but did it bother me...not really.
i know there is something so much more wonderful than anything he could ever give me. and that is what keeps me trucking on. i prayed and prayed for nights on end, to have God to help us work, but i realized that my prayer never got answered, because God has a better plan for me. has that been the easiest thing for me to do, let it be in someone else's hands, no. but its in some the best hands that i could have ever asked for.
my plate is too full, too worry about a guy that wouldn't give me two seconds unless it was for sex. does it hurt me to say that...yes. do i regret anything that i did with him...no. i have to tell myself a lot, that you can't regret something, because it was exactly what you wanted. and at the time, he was exactly what i wanted.
life is good. i just bought my very first car. its a 2008 pontiac G6 GT, she's red with beige leather interior, and wood paneling on the doors. the best part about it all, is she's MINE. i feel very lucky to have been able to have boughten this car, but i know i couldn't have done it without my parents help. i had my 2 year anniversary with cedars in may (longest job i've ever held). the doctors are working on deciding whether to classify my disease in remission or re-evaluate my case again in 3 months...either way its a huge blessing. i started the last of my 850 hours of practicum with Heartland Big Brothers Big Sisters as an Admnistrative Intern. this means i'm one step closer to graduation. and on monday i will be starting the second to last quarter of classes. that's the beginning of the last 20 weeks of my college career. which will be in december of 2008. that's in 5 months people...5 months and i will be a college graduate. i can't wait. i can't wait to enter the world as a "big girl."
what i'm wishing for now, is for both my maternal grandma, and my paternal grandfather to make it to see me graduate. will they make it...probably not. does that kill me inside...most definately. i have wanted nothing more than for both my grandparents to see their first grandchild graduate college. but i know if they don't make it, they will be looking down from above.
God has given me this life, and everything that happens in it, and to me, is in his hands. Who am I to try and change that. Its taken me 22 years, and a huge heart break to realize that. I'm just going to live every day in the present, and let things happen as they happen. I've got to much to do, to worry about the small petty details, and too much to see, to worry about the obstacles that are going to get in my way. But most importantly, and I've got too much of a person within myself waiting to develop, to let a guy ruin all of that. | | |
| How Far
Martina McBride
There's a boat, I could sail away
There's the sky, I could catch a plane
There's a train, there's the tracks
I could leave and I could choose to not come back
Oh never come back
There you are, giving up the fight
Here I am begging you to try
Talk to me, let me in
But you just put your wall back up again
Oh when's it gonna end
[Chorus:]
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
There's a chance I could change my mind
But I won't, not till you decide
What you want, what you need
Do you even care if I stay or leave
Oh, what's it gonna be
[Chorus:]
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far
Out of this chair, or just across the room
Halfway down the block or halfway to the moon
How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say
YeahI'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far | | |
| If there's just one piece of advice I can give you, it's this - when there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. And when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. Because the best things in life, they don't come free.
-Grey's Anatomy
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